Break Up

Katrine Mae S. Perez

Break Up

When you are in high school, two to three months can feel like forever. Just remember back to a week before graduation and how slow those last few days moved. I know it is hard to imagine but I dated someone for only eight months. Although there have been many life defining moments and a short time relationship happened to us, breaking up with Guilbert was by far the biggest challenge I have ever had to face. My ability to move past him impacted my life in ways you cannot imagine.

                                Guilbert and I met in the summer of year 2005 during my vacation. At that moment I felt what it was like to have butterflies in my stomach and the racing heart when his eyes caught my own. I felt as if I were Vivian from, Lovers In Paris, waiting for Carlo to express his true feelings. Due to each of our encounters, I fell harder and harder for him and he did the same. For the two moths, I felt nothing could go wrong, yet I was unmindful.

                                Guilbert and I embarked on an eight months based on fighting and lack of trust. It became more of a chore, rather than a choice, to be together. There were too many days and nights of tears, rather than smiles. It is incredible how someone can be everything you want but can’t be at the same time. After way to long I realized that I no longer longed to be with Guilbert. I became dependent on Guilbert to make me happy. I needed him to be there all the time.

                                When Guilbert and I realized what it was we had become, I made the decision to leave behind that part of my life. It was that single conversation that changed my life dramatically. I realized after my decision how far from God I really had drifted. I now know that true happiness comes from within a person, not based on another individual.
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