Personal Response on Sexuality Identity

Personal Response on Sexuality Identity
      Lashanda Sanford
      Laura Schulz

Personal Response on Sexuality Identity

      What is my purpose in life? What am I supposed to do with my future and am I supposed to share it with someone or am I to go at it alone? These are questions that I often found myself questioning. Not knowing what to do with myself, feeling like I was on a path of destruction. I once had no hope for the future that is until I found myself.

      Before beginning this class I never really went into any deep thought about my sexual identity, sexuality, or my love life. I knew that I was not a virgin, had my heartbroken, and found some attraction to the same sex, but I never thought any further into it. I grew up having a normal life, two parents and I was an only child to my mother and the youngest of my father’s children. My parents were blessed to be able to provide for me and my needs as well as my wants, but when I became a teenager things changed. I started to explore and became a “wild” teenager. At the age of 12 I had my first experience with oral sex and at the age of 13 is when I lost my virginity. I don’t mean to be too personal, but this is my personal response.

      From a blessed and only child to a wild, unruly teenager. I’ll be the first to admit, I was very promiscuous and I did not figure out that the things that I was doing would later ruin my reputation. As we discuss how the media labeled women and gave women a bad name, I did that to myself. I made a bad reputation for myself. I was not wise with my sexual decision making, there were times when I did not protect myself and times where I felt that sex made me special. I craved the attention, not that I wasn’t getting it at home but I wanted to be known. I did things based on the spur of the moment not thinking about the future.

      I eventually grew out of that...