Another Day

Another day of realization of being…
In this place,
Another day the cruel reality…
Slaps me in the face.
Another day I feel as though…
I’m trapped inside a cage,
Another day I do all I can…
To suppress my internal rage.
Another day same as the other day…
Nothing seems to change.
And though everything stays the same…
It all seems so strange.
Another day I face this life…
Just me and me alone.
Another day slices through me like a knife…
‘cause I’m out of my comfort zone.
Another day I wonder why…
And ask myself, “why even try?”
Another day I say, “Oh no, not again.”
Another day has drained me dry and I feel like giving in.
Another day I smile…
And force back brewing tears,
Another day added to my file…
Inching up to the years.
Another day I hate to see…
What I am if I’m not free.
Another day I’m forced to live this way…
It’s not living…
It’s just another day!
ANOTHER DAY 2
Another day I struggle…
To get out of bed.
Another day I wrestle…
With these thoughts in my head.
Another day I go through it…
I get dressed and brush my hair.
Another day I feel like shit…
My clothes are wrinkled and I don’t care!
Another day I wish would end…
Before it has a chance to start.
Another day I have to pretend…
That I don’t feel what’s in my heart.
Another day…
Just like the ridiculous day before.
Living ain’t easy…
It’s a tedious chore!
Another day I must search…
For peace that’s virtually impossible to find.
Another day a thousand thoughts…
Go racing through my mind.
Another day I pray…
Please, let the end be near.
Another day all I want…
Is just to get out of here.
Another day I struggle…
To act like everything’s okay,
Like nothing’s wrong; like my kids aren’t gone…
Like it’s just another day!
ANOTHER DAY 3
Another day I’m alive…
Another day I’ve survived.
Another day I’ll strive…
To be the best me I can be.
Another day I can feel…
Another day my life is real.
Another day for time to heal…
Until the day that I am...