Personal Explanatory Essay

My mind is racing, and I can’t sleep. How can I? Our lives are about to change forever, and I have no control over it! At this moment, I have every emotion humanly possible rushing through me.   I know I should be sleeping; because I am going to need all of my energy today.   Even if I wanted to, there is no going back. I can’t cancel the appointment; or call out sick.   There is no avoiding this amazing event.   My husband, Jake, reaches his arm up and puts it around my shoulder to comfort me. We lie in each other’s arms and drift off to sleep.
BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!   I roll over and hit the snooze button ; only to realize it is not an ordinary day like every other day, it is the day my husband and I are going to have our second child. Instantly I am wide awake and all of the emotions that possessed me earlier this morning come rushing back.   “Here we go,” I thought; and the event was thrust into motion. We started with our showers, getting the baby’s bag, our mommy and daddy bag, a boy outfit, a girl outfit, the car keys…and then everything seemed to stop. No more rushing.   It was as if everything was in slow motion when I walked into my sons’ room. I see him lying there so peaceful, sound, and innocent; knowing that the next time I see him he will not be the only one that I hold in my arms in a way that only a mother does. He will not be the only child I have ever given birth to, nursed, sang to and rocked to sleep when he was sick. Do I have enough love? Enough time for two? It has been so long with just one. Is he ready to add the title of “big brother”?   Even though the car was approaching speeds of 45 miles per hour life stood still.
The clouds overhead were grey and gloomy as we approached the hospital parking garage. There it is parking spot 17. I click a picture and my husband chuckles. Our car, over packed and bursting with everything from baby clothes to the joy of soon to be new parents, pulls into spot 17 and parks. I watch as Jake picks up both the...